Well I have started my training in my new position and it is going well. I am hoping that I will be able to remember everything in the next few weeks. Since I have to be back at the current job until Jan. 13.

Here is a pic of us taken Sunday out in the rain. I am dying over the face that my oldest is making.

Christmas....I am glad it came and went.

I have been considering getting a tattoo. Nothing big and fancy just my nick-name. My only worry is that I will not like it once I get one.

I made the trip to Boston again yesterday, I actually had a nice time.

I hope that everyone had a good Christmas.

Today was just one of those days where I could not seem to find anything to wear.
I must have looked for a good 20-30 min through my closet to find something. Then
I finally decide on a particular skirt and put this sweater on with it and end up not liking the
way it looks so then I am back to square one looking once again. I finally just put some pants on and then leave out the house with the wrong shoes on.

I guess it is going to be one of those days.

I love my fur coat (yes it is real, a couple of dead rabbits) and I am really considering buying myself another one.

Today is our entire department's holiday luncheon. I wish I could just skip it and run to the mall, but I will go and be a team player.

Nosy People

It truly amazes me how nosy people are

I am sitting here at my desk minding my own business reading someone else's blog page,
One of my co-workers comes on the side of me and as I minimize my screen she says, "why did you make it small, the colors made it look like you were reading something interesting."
Now I think real quick as to how I will reply to her because in all honesty she is cool peoples. I want to tell her to mind her business because I am just in one of those moods. But instead I tell her "it's personal, not for others to read", I guess I sounded rude because she looked offended as hell. But see this is where I draw the line, I can't stand people who are down right nosy.

On another note....

I am still in my process of weeding people out of my life. Sat. I cut someone out who at one time was very very dear to me, but things just weren't healthy with us so our time came on Saturday and I ended that friendship.

I feel as if 2006 has got to be better for me. I am so tired of all the bull shit that I have been dealing with.....so hopefully I will get some kind of break.

Things

This weekend went by way to fast for me. Now it's Monday once again and I am back to my usual routine.

I really wish I could jump on a plane and go and see my mom, I miss her a lot. February is not coming fast enough.

I did some Christmas shopping last night. It is so amazing how many people were still out on a Sunday night shopping. I mostly brought clothes, I am still trying to figure out what to get a good friend of mine. Hopefully I will think of something very soon.

company holiday meal

Today was the Company's "Holiday Meal". Since I have been here for the past 4 years it has been the same thing. Either baked stuffed chicken or prime rib. Me of course, gets the chicken each year. Oh yea and they give you something stupid like this year everyone got a calendar and last year it was a Christmas CD with songs on it from 1920. You would think with all the money they profit that it could be a little better.

I am also suffering from an awful sinus infection so I am a little cranky. Hopefully with some rest I will start feeling better.

Finally...

I got the call... After agonizing over and over. driving myself crazy wondering if I would make the move or not. Now all of my worries are over and a new set are coming in. But one thing that I can say is that this is just another page in the new Chapter of my life. (only a few will know what I am talking about)

On another note, I am dead broke and really stressed about it.

Christmas

I can't believe that Christmas is right around the corner.
I love the holiday's though. My aunt sent me an email asking
what I was doing on Christmas day, I still have not responded to her yet.
I know her plan is to come here, but I honestly like to be with my family at home,
I know I must sound like a mean bitch, but you have to know my aunt to know what I mean.
Maybe the day after. I will have to think about it. So the weather man says that
we will get anywhere from 4-10 inches of snow between tonight into the morning tomorrow.
I don't care if it snows, but I just really hate driving in it.

Well I approach the boss, let her know and then she proceeds to say that she is happy but, she would want me to stay until she hires someone else. I am like WTF I know how long that would take. There is no way that I would wait that long. So....I speak to my supervisor about it and she agrees with me that there is no way that could happen. I am relieved that she is on my side, so she spoke with my boss today, but I still haven't heard the outcome of that.

I am also glad that we didn't get any snow here. I was so dreading it. I have been wanting to go to the outlets lately so I am considering driving there this weekend.

Just another Monday

Well it's Monday already and it seemed as if I woke up several times during the night. Then to make matters worse by the time I really got up, dressed and out the door, I had to let the damn car warm up for about 15 min. So there goes me being on time to work.

I am sitting here now dreading how my conversation with the boss will go about me letting her know that I applied for another position with a dept. that she doesn't care to much for. But hey whatever, she will just have to deal. If she fucks this up and gives me a shitty reference I will be so pissed.

Now the snows here and I am already sick of it.

Thanksgiving/Weekend

Well I have to say that I had an ok time down in Maryland. I got to experience my other halves sister in law's idea of a Thanksgiving dinner. She actually made a good turkey. But I almost died laughing when I asked her if she had any gravy and she replied with "my turkey doesn't have gravy." On Friday I went to a lot of stores there and the mall. Then Sat. I did the same thing. By the time we left on Sat. late afternoon, sit through traffic on the NJ Turnpike and all. I was glad to get into my own bed that night. Sunday was fucked up but hey they say things happen for a reason. Now it's Monday and back into the grind of things and not wanting to be here.

Thanksgiving

It's raining cats and dogs outside.

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and I am looking forward to it. We are going to Maryland tomorrow and will return on Sunday. I do have to say that I don't want to go to MD, I'd rather stay at home and do Thanksgiving with just our family. But I will put my smile face on and go. I did buy a Turkey though and will be cooking it when we get back.

Tomorrow I may work a half a day just so that I can get things together.

I am back from my trip to Boston. I am surprised that I actually had a good time. It was nice getting away from my regular old surroundings. My aunt was actually cool this weekend to. I was just waiting for her to say something fucked up like she always does but she didn't so that was good. Today it is so nice out so I am loving it. I didn't even have to put the heat on in the car. I wish we had more days like this for a while.

Trading Spouses

I just finished watching trading spouses, and I have to say it is one of the most craziest episodes that I have seen so far. If you watched it you know what I am talking about. Lady was straight crazy. I am watching the show like WTF....This Bitch is crazy. Damn did she think that everyone is supposted to to be into the church like her?? She took it to the extreme when she got home, screaming telling the camera crew to get out of the house....LMAO....what the hell oh yea then she is going to go as far as ripping up the letter from the other mom saying that they will not use any money that she delineated to them. ALL the while I am laughing my ass off. The the show ends and they put on the screen how the other mother has shared the money out and at the very end here's the shit. It says that "Margaret has decided to use the money" (Margaret is the crazy church one) Crazy ass bitch on tv talking all that shit and then turns and takes the money anyways....What did she think? Did she think that FOX was gonna go out like that and not let us know...OMG Some people.

*Thump it was crazy bumping into you the other day in Wally World, that was the last place I thought that i'd see anyone. Nice hair.

*Loc I am still waiting for you to update. Hmmmm...I wonder what the hold up is? No inspiration????

*Foxy you had me dying with your Whys!

*K I agree with you, we are very alike in ways.

This weekend was a busy one for me. My little girl turns 8 today. I can't belive how fast time has passed. Here is a picture of her yesterday. Well it's Monday and I am back in the grind of things.

Some people

Some people....some people amaze me everyday. They amaze me with the stupid things that piss them off. They amaze me with things that they do. They amaze me with their weird ways. Hmmmm....Some people

I had a long conversation with *S today and I learned so many things about *S that I couldn't believe. But one thing that I can say is that *S is a real good friend of mine.

Still in my process of gettting rid of old associates/friends all I can say is that it is going....Some still don't get it so I guess the nice route is not working, I will be resorting to being the bitch that they hate.

Randoms

I am unusually tired today. I have no idea why either. I guess that I need a break from the normal routine that I have. I feel that I am getting old on the inside but still looking young on the outside. *A told me that I need to slow down and take a break from all the running that I do, but the question is, how to I do that? Hmmmmm..... I am also stressing the fact that I have to dish out some major dollars for car repairs tomorrow. There goes my little extra spending cash. Hmmmmmmmm....I don't know how some people do it. I really need to get a little part time gig very very soon.

You know I have really been going over and over in my mind how to delete some people from my life/circle and it's really driving me crazy because I want to slowly weed them out but I am unsure how to go about it. I need to live my life way way different than it has been going so this is priority 1. I am so sick of the people/associates that try to surround me with all of their negativity. It's becoming a pain in the ass.

I will be celebrating another year on Sat. but I am not even excited. I guess because to me it's just another day. Just another day to be thankful that I made it to. I have seen so many that I have grown up with not even make it this far. (Sad) Since I have basically given up the club scenes I will just relax all day Sat. and try to have a stress free weekend.

Rain, Wind, and more Rain

I am officially sick of this New England weather. I damn near almost broke my neck this morning trying to carry my bag, purse, umbrella, and the baby this morning out to the car. The rain seems like it will never stop.

You

Last night I lay in bed not being able to sleep because I was thinking of you. Wishing you were here. Damn what have you done to me. Got me feeling a way that I haven't felt in a very long time. I am so so greatful to have you.

Rain Rain Go Away

I officially hate this weather. It has not only been raining since last Friday, but it is also cold as ever. OMG...I hate this. To make matters worse it is almost impossible for me to wake up on time in the morning. Ugggggh....

I am really looking forward to this weekend though. Just spending time with the family.

*Loc glad to see you reading my blog again.

Crossed the line

She has definitely crossed the line with this shit.

I come into work this morning and before I sit at my desk I notice that my recycling bin moved. Ok no problem, but then as I look around I notice that nothing is under my desk. WTF where is everything. Ok I start searching and slowing find my shit. I can feel my blood pressure going up and I am about to flip. How dare she have the nerve to come in my space and think she is gonna move shit she is MY Assistant and she has only been here 3 weeks.

Obviously she doesn't know me. So I speak to a co-worker/really good friend about this. She tells me that maybe she was just trying to be nice and help out. I am thinking that she's just being a bitch. So my co-worker tells me to be nice and let her know when she comes in not to do it anymore. But if she does it again then curse her the fuck out. Ok I say to her that's what I will do. I will calm down and when she comes in I will approach her about it.

Hmmmmm....Am I over reacting? I would never ever do some bold ass shit like this.

Stay tuned to find out what she says.

Ex Best Friend

She used to be my best friend.
It's crazy how you can be friends one minute and enemies the next.
That's how it is with us.
I would tell her my secrets that no one else would know.
She would tell me hers. Then one day it just ended.
Our friendship.
I went over and over in my mind if I said something wrong to offend her. But naaaaaaa even if I did, I hoped that she was WOMAN enough to call me on it. Sometimes I do say fucked up shit without even thinking twice.
Sometimes I sit and think, was she really worthy enough for my friendship because for me I don't keep a lot of friends, just a few, the rest are ALL associates. So when I consider you my friend I consider you my family too. I let you into the real me. No sugar coated person.
Hmmmmm....Well I thought that I wouldn't get over the hurt of not having someone to confide in, someone who didn't judge me. But I finally did. That's just a closed chapter of my life.

Wednesday

I find it harder and harder to get to sleep at night. It will be about 8:00 and I will be super tired but then about 9:30 or so I get that second wind when I really need to be taking my ass to bed. See this works in my benefit sometimes. Last night it was good that I did get that second wind because I got to see the season premier of Nip Tuck. I love that show so much. I honestly wasn't that impressed with it last night. Hmmm...Hopefully it will get better. But see I ended up going to bed sometime around 12am and then I paid for it this morning by not getting up until 7am. I was flying to work only to get here a min before my time to start and to have the boss ask me some stupid ass bull shit as I come in. Now with the new employee she may intimidate them, but her ass knows that I am not in any way intimidated by her bull shit. I will give it right back very quick. So this morning I had to do that and it's amazing how quick some people will back their asses right down. LMAO...

I am so glad it is Wednesday. One more day closer to the weekend.

Today....

Today I did not want to get out of bed. I hit the snooze at least 4 times.
I sometimes wish that I didn't have to come to work on Monday's.
This weekend draged for me. It was very uneventful. I did a little sewing but nothing big.
It's funny cause when people I know find out that I sew they can't believe it. Everyone tells me that I don't look like the type. What is the type? What an old lady or some nerdy girl? Hmmm well I don't know what it is but that is something that I do and I do it very well.
I am so so glad that the day is almost over.
I just want to go home and get in to the bed. Tomorrow is a half day for me so I am totally looking forward to it!!!

Hump Day

I am so glad that it is finally Wednesday. I t seems as if the week is going by slower and slower each day. Not too much has been going on with me.

The other day I was talking to *D and *D said that it bothers them that I am the type of person who can give my 110% to some one day and then if my feelings get hurt I can just give up that 110% real quick. I had never thought about that. So while we were talking I told *D that the reason why I am like that is because I have been hurt to many times, so rather than keep on trying to forget about things I just stop putting my effort into it. So *D told me that is why they protect my feelings with a lot of things.

Just about done

Well it's Thursday and I have to say that I am glad that only one more day until the weekend. This has been an interesting week.

Today is his birthday so I will have to be extra nice and sweet.

Work has been work the new girl started this week and so far so good. She seems cool. I am broke and can't wait until next week so I can get paid. It has been a long time since my funds have been drained like they are right now.

On another note.... I am glad to see that FOXY had posted a little something.

Tuesday I brought my mom and brother to the airport. That was a pretty emotional scene. LOL...Now that I think back to that day I have to laugh people were probably laughing their asses off looking at a bunch of us grown asses crying like that. LMAO...
I tell you though nothing changes with my mom even with her 1300 miles away. She and I already had an argument yesterday on the damn phone. I am was not even in the mood for her shit. UGGGGGGH.

*Thumper glad to see you posting again. I can't wait to hear some of your mall experiences.

Another Day

Isn't this such a nice pictue?
It is such a beautiful day today. The wind is blowing the temperature is right. This should be a relaxing weekend for me. I am just about done with school shopping. I only have to get T* his sneakers and then we will be all set.

Monday

I can't believe that it took me so long to get out of bed this morning. I actually went to bed fairly early but still I could not get up. This weekend went really good for me, no problems at all. We have a wedding to go to this weekend coming up so I will have to look for something to wear. Happy Monday!!!

Freaky Friday

Well I have nothing really planned for this weekend. I hope you all have a safe, fun weekend.

Wednesday

I am disappointed because we are not going to be going out of town. Hubby has to work on Sunday so I am so so pissed. His job is so demanding now that he's a supervisor. It seems like every week he is gone out of town. In a way I like this but in a way I don't.

It has been so slow here at work today. I will be glad when I finally leave and go home to just chill.

Monday

She's really leaving....I have really had a fucked up day today. I never wanted to really hear that my mother is moving to FL. But what makes it bad for me is that she is leaving in 2 weeks. I am filled with all kinds of feelings. I have been feeling angry, sad, happy, mad that I am loosing not only my mother but my friend. She drives me crazy but overall she's all that I have and it is driving me crazy. Some people are like "don't worry about it cause she's just in FL". To me that's like an eternity away from me. 1,300 miles, shit I would have even been ok if she was moving somewhere here up north. So now I sit here and think to myself. I truly am going to feel so so alone. I mean yes I have my aunt but we aren't all that close and yes I have the kids and hubby but nothing is like your mom. I also wonder how my brother will adjust.
Will he be happy?
Will he hate it?
Damn I have been thinking shit like: will she ever come here to visit me or is that going to me on me to come down there.
When I told my daughter she just cried. They are best friends. It is killing me to see my little girl sad like this. I have never seen her this way.
I am thankful that my oldest (son) is taking it pretty well.

Anyways, I spoke to (We will call this person)*S* today and they asked me if I have ever mentioned them in my blog and I said yes. But then they went on to ask if it was good or bad. I told them that I could not tell them. So then *S* kept on persisting on me telling them. I was really getting annoyed after a while.

We are suppost to to be going out of town this up coming weekend but as much as it will be good for us to get away, I really don't want to go. Maybe my feelings will change closer to the end of the week.

So *K* calls me today and immediately goes into this 20 min rant about her man. I listen and don't comment. I truly didn't know what to say. I am getting sick of hearing her bitch about him everyday. She is so into herself that it is sickning. I am also wondering why *A also heater her because she called me yesterday and when he answered he told her that he didn't want her to call me anymore. I am wondering if he thinks something is up with her. He keeps on giving me some bull shit about me being friends with her sister years and years ago so I should not be friends with her since I knew her sister first. That is so stupid.

Irks

Here are my top 20 things that just plain irk me.

1. Leaving the toilet seat up.
2. Not flushing the toilet (that's just plain nasty)
3. Blowing your nose in your hand
4. Not washing your hands when you use the bathroom
5. Clipping your toe nails on the couch or bed. (YUCK)
6. Wearing the same outfit twice during the week.
7. The fucking Chinese slippers
8. Wearing white pants and you can see the panty outline.
9. Girls who are pregnant who refuse to buy maternity clothes and still think that their tight jeans look good with their belly hanging out and the jeans not done up.
10. People who swear they know it all.
11. Wearing scarves on your head out of the house. (Refer back to my blog on Scarves)
12. People who call you back when you have plainly told them that YOU would call them back.
13. Parents dressed better than the kids.
14. Farting and not saying excuse me.
15. Old ladies in the store who act like they can't say excuse me and will stand there waiting for you to move. (Catch me in the store with that shit and you will be standing there all day waiting for me to move.)
16. Nosy people.
17. Cheap men.
18. Women who get mad at me cause their man is looking at me when they are with them. (It isn't my fault that I am cute)
19. Guys who just don't get it when you tell them that you are taken.
20. Bad Ass Kids and their mothers who are in denial.

There you have it. I have probably forgot a few.

*If I have offended anyone by these then that's too damn bad it's my page. No one told you to read it anyways.

Freaky Friday

Well it's Freaky Friday and I am so glad to be getting out of here at 12. I am just really tired today, so I will go home and sleep for a few hours before leaving to go get the kids.


I hope you all have a great weekend.

HUMP DAY

It's finally Wednesday, one day closer to the weekend. A weekend that I have absolutely nothing planned. It seems as if that is how my weekends have started to get. Damn I must be getting old.

This morning I got a call from a friend who wanted to come visit me today. I just really didn't want to be bothered so I said...."ummm....today's a no go and this whole week is not looking really good either." What I really wanted to tell them was, No I don't want you to come here and never ever do so leave me the fuck alone. But see you can't say those things without hurting someone's feelings.

Yesterday I was speaking to a friend and we were talking about being to accommodating to people, whether it is your friends or your relationship. I started thinking and I think at times I am way to accommodating and I definitely have to stop that.

Fall is almost here and it is my favorite time of the year. I am so looking forward to it.

Happy Birthday

Today is a good friend's birthday



Happy Birthday Dre!!!!!!!!!!

Damn you are getting old.

Randoms

The humidity has finally broken. I am too happy.

This weekend was actually ok for me.

Sat. we went to the beach so all day.

Sunday we went out to eat which was cool.

Sunday night these fools were fighting all against my car.

Monday back into the grind of things at work.

Friday

TGIF....This weekend we are all going to the beach so I am really looking forward to it.

Have a great weekend.


*Thumper...I hope you are having a great time in MD.

Check out this

I came across this blogger and the post brought back crazy good memories for me.
Check it out. http://thefoxybrownshow.blogspot.com/2005/08/school-daze.html

3:45 pm

Ok it's 3:45pm and for me the count down begins.
It seems like once this time comes, time starts flying by really fast.
Once I see that the clock is 4:15, I know that I am in the clear to get out of here. I start getting my stuff together and put my purse on my shoulder and as I see the time hit 4:43, I am putting my phones on voice mail and walking out the door.

For me the minute I walk out side to get in the car, I feel a big relief/calmness. It's crazy.

So this past weekend I was pissed because I intened to go to the West Indian parade in Hartford but he had to work so I wasn't going to take the kids there by myself. Oh well there's always next year.

Monday's

Another Monday and I hate it. It takes me almost an hour to get up in the morning. Today was awful, then I wake up by the baby jumping on my head. How worse can it get!!!!

I come into work to a complete mess on my desk. Some ass came in the office this past weekend and knocked a ton of stuff on my desk and left it there. Some people!!!

HOT

OMG...today has got to be one of the hottest days.
You know one of those days where you just want to walk around naked with the air on all day? I am truly dying the minute I walk outside into the heat.

Tuesday

This is only my second day back to work and all ready I am ready to quit.
This is a sure sign that I truly need to get a better job that I am happy at.
These mutha fuckers do not pay me enough for all of the shit that I do here.

So this weekend we are suppost to to be going to the West Indian parade in Hartford. I am caught between wanting to go and not wanting to go. Uggggggggggggh.

Random thoughts

I can't believe how great the weather has been this summer so far. Last year doesn't even come close to this.

The Neighbor

Ok I have been living here for the past 3 years and for the past 2 my neighbor has been trying to kick his game to me. But the bad thing about it is that he can hardly speak English. Tell me one thing. How the hell are you going to try to talk to me if you can't even have a full conversation. What would we do spend the entire time trying to use sign language? LMAO...Oh yea he clearly knows that I am TAKEN but this doesn't deter him at all.

Restriction

Anyways, this past week someone has in particular has really pissed me off. I am seriously considering putting them on my restriction list. Ok I am a spoiled, selfish girl, but you know what???? I deserve to be, because I can also be very sweet and caring. But I truly feel that this person has not been giving me the same vibe and attention that I have been showing them.

Something I recommend that everyone have at one point in their life

See I have this "associate/long term friend" who at one time in our lives we had a relationship. It was a great one but we were too much alike and it just sort of faded. But we remained friends/associates cause we could talk to each other about absolutely anything without judging each other.

Long days

This day has seemed to drag on and on. I hate these kind especially because they mostly happen when I am here at work. Uggggggh....I can't wait until 4:45 pm so I can run out of the door.

I am back

Hey what's up I am finally back out of hiding. Let's see, I went to Florida this past week and got back home this morning at 1:30am. Boy am I so tired and my ass is here at work unfortunately. I had a really good time despite the drive there and back. I will never drive there again, I will do my usual and jump my ass on a plane and fly there. I am to impatient for all of that long site seeing shit.

3 Days have passed

It's almost 3:30 and I am sitting here missing you like crazy. I really need to feel your touch right now. I need you to hold me. I don't know if I will be able to get through the rest of the month without feeling you. This is truly a test for me you have no idea. Maybe one day I will really have to let you know just how bad I need you......

A while

I know it's been a while since my last post. The truth is, I have been unmotivated. Today I am so tired. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night I really wish that I could go get back into bed and sleep the entire day.

On another note I have to tell you one thing that really irks me. When someone keeps calling my house after they know good and damn well that I am sleep. You know when the phone rings and you are in that good deep sleep and it just wakes you up out of it. Well that was what kept on happening last night. I was one mad bitch and to top it off the person was talking so damn low that I could only make out some of the words that they were saying.

This is why I shut the ringer off at night.

It's 9 am and all ready it's 70 and humid as hell

It's another hot day here in the 413. I really don't have much to say but I do know that I really have to find sometime to catch up on my sleep, I have not had a good sleep in weeks. Maybe this weekend I will have to catch up. I got a call yesterday from a long time really good friend just when I was leaving work and that really made my day.

Summer? Is it almost here?

This weekend had to be one of the best here weather wise so far this year. Temps were in the low 90s and I was loving every single bit of it. Summer is my favorite time of the year, because I love going to BBQs (my family is famous for having one every damn weekend) and to the beach. Well, so far we have taken our first getaway for the summer to the Cape. Hmmmm... what's next??? I do know for sure that Virginia Beach is 4th of July weekend. Besides all the good weather, I have my final paper's rough draft due tonight and I still haven't even started it. Not one word on the paper. I am truly unmotivated. I took a shower to try to cool off and see if I would get motivated, but nope that didn't work. Now I am sitting here contemplating whether to just sit here trying to get motivated or just say "fuck it" and just take that 10% late grade cut and do it tomorrow. I am tired as fuck too. Uggggh.

Oh yea I forgot to mention that I went to my first wedding shower for 2 lesbians who will be getting married later on this month. All that I can say is that it was very interesting. But overall, I had a really good time.


Hey DW* what's up on the posts? It's been a minute and I do remember that you had the nerve at one time or another to get on me about not posting frequently. Do you need motivation???? I expect to see something soon. Maybe that Roll Call thing we spoke about. Call me.

AS* I hope you are good. I was thinking of you this weekend, I miss you.

Lonly

Have you ever been lonly? Well if you haven't it's a fucked up feeling. Right now I am lonly as fuck. I am missing him so much and it's driving me crazy. I am needing to be in his arms right this moment. I hate going to bed alone too. Waking up and he's not by my side.

Shit never did I think in a million years that I would be this lonly.

Another Day

Uggggggg....it's another cold rainy day here. I still can't believe that it's the end of May and it's cold as shit and still raining.

I remember when May came around it was sunny the temp was at least 75-80. Now...Hell Nooooo....It's fucking 43 degrees it feels like winter. I hate NEW ENGLAND....Shit I feel like running away to some place warm where I won't have to be still wearing a heavy coat and having my heat on at the end of May.

You know what gets me when I see women go out of their houses with rollers in their hair or a damn scarf on their head. I mean shit are you in that much of a rush that you can't pull your hair back real quick or even take them damn rollers out. I am one who you will never see me outside of my home looking a hot mess like that.

Women if you can't take the time to fix your hair at least put on a hat.

But you see there is this chick that I see everyday and she never has her hair done. It's always in a scarf. I want to say to her, "look if you don't know how to do your hair then I'll do it for you." LMAO...This chick will even come out with her man looking like shit. Damn can't her man say something to her. Who the fuck would want to be seen with someone who looks like they are about to go to bed every fucking day. I see her driving, coming back from the laundry mat, going here and there with fucking sweatpants on, tee shirt, and that damn scarf with her pony tail pined up in the back. And it's not even like she has her hair done nice. Noooooooooooo it's fucked up in the back. OMG...when will people learn.

Great Weekend

Many of you may not know this but, I rarely have a great weekend. I have good ones but only once in a blue moon will i have a great weekend. Well this weekend was GREAT. It was so stress free, I had no worries, it was so relaxing and I was in good company . The weather even held up. Just had to share that.

And now Monday will be here and back into the grind of the SOS.(Same old shit).

Birthday

Well next Friday is my 1st borns Birthday. It's crazy how fast he's grown up. I am still in shock that he'll be 10. Damn I ain't ready for that. I still remember when he was born. That was the worse labor in the world. But hey I got a beautiful boy out of it. Now what's next? Shit all he can think about is basketball and playstation.

Now I have the task of bringing him and 3 or 4 of his friends to the movies next weekend. And then to the mall. I am going to die. I am not really wanting to shuffle the kids all around. Why couldn't he just ask for a party somewhere, which would have been fine with me. Oh and don't mention the gifts. As he has gotten older the gifts are more expensive.

Oh yea I'm going up to the school today when I leave this god awful job.

With that said. Have a great weekend. It's going to rain here, so you know where i'll be. In the damn house.

You know I am so sick of phony ass people. I also am sick of people who think that you are stupid and think that you believe every stupid thing that they say to you. All I have to say to those few out there whom I know like that and if they are reading this you know who you are. Grow up and cut the bull-shit.

On a lighter note...

T* got in a fight today and when I found out about it I was hot as shit. I wanted to go find the kid and beat the fuck out of him and who ever else tryed to step in. But of course I couldn't do that. I will be taking care of that situation tomorrow.

Hey DW* get at me. I sent you an email.

There's no point in me trying to hide
Hide feelings that I have inside
Feelings that are tearing me apart
It's you....You are what's on my mind
When I lay in bed at night...just you and only you
Every waking moment I wish you were by my side
What I am trying to say is baby
I love you....

Rain, Rain, More Rain.

I hate weekends like these. I can't believe I am actually looking forward to work tomorrow.

Superwoman

Damn do I think I am superwoman? I am sitting here about to fall asleep but trying to finish these 2 papers that are due tonight. What possessed me to take these classes I have no idea.

Never again

I was in the store the other day and saw these packets of frozen dinners for you to cook in your crock pot so I decided to buy the Chicken Soup one. BIG MISTAKE I put the food in the crock pot went to work. When I came back in the house everything was smelling all good, so I figured that this food was going to be good. I tried a little before dinner and I have never tasted something so nasty. See I usually make chicken soup from scratch, but since I saw this in the grocery store and it looked real good on the picture of the bag, I just knew that there was no way I could go wrong. Never ever again will I buy that mess.

Questions for you

When you are with her do you think of me?
When you are with your friends or at work
do I pass through your thoughts?
If you were to see me right now, what would you do?
Would you make love to me with your eyes?
Would you kiss me all over?
Could you ever love me?
Take care of me?
Take me for me?
Have me as your woman?

Can You Do These Things?

You

They say everything happens for a reason. Well if that's true then I am so glad that you came into my life. I will be there for you anytime you need me to talk to. Have a good weekend.

I often sit and wonder to myself...Damn what I am doing is fucked up. I have A* at home but I also have HIM whenever I need him. Am I being selfish? Sometimes yes, but see I wouldn't need HIM if A* was meeting me at least 1/2 way in this relationship. In HIM I find things that I love that I wish A* was, but A* is very stubborn and is set in his ways and will never change. In HIM I find my soulmate, but unfortunately I have ended up with A*.

Finally some Nice Weather

Hello: I can't believe we are finlly getting some over due nice weather here in the 413. But as you know by this weekend it will be fucked up again.

The Telephone

I am really sick and tired of people thinking just because I have a phone I am always supposted to be accessable. My motive on this is if I don't pick up leave a message and if I feel like calling you back I will.

Some people really get me like the ones who will call my house in the middle of the fucking day knowing that I work 8-5 and have the nerve to yell on the machine asking me to pick up the phone. I feel like leaving a message that says "If you are calling me between the hours of 8-5 that means that your lazy ass doesn't have a job and a life cause you if you did you wouldn't be calling some one who you KNOW is at work."

But see I can't do that without hurting someone's feelings. Damn.

I am talking to my moms the other day and you would think that I'm a little kid cause she's on the phone asking me how come I don't leave my ringer on at night. What if there's an emergency and they need me. All the while I am thinking to myself. I turn my ringer off at night because of people like you who call me at fucking 5am thinking not being considerate thinking just cause your ass is up the whole world is up and you will get an attitude if I tell you I am sleep and I'll call you back. Shittttttttttttttt people. So I go on and listen to her then I just reply with "I turn it off so I won't be bothered by people calling me when I am sleep". She got a crazy attitude and just ended the conversation.

I haven't lived under this woman's roof for 7 years now and you would think that by now she would respect the way people run their households. I guess somethings will never change.

Hello

Hey what's up. Well it's been about a week and a half since my last post but hey T-Baby's been busy with work, family, etc...

So let's see what's good with me....(hmmmm....)

Not a damn thing. Same ol shit.

BTW....I am hoping that we don't have another damn snow storm.

I hate living in New England.

A little about me

Three Names You Go By:

T-Baby (of course)
T
Baby Girl

Three Screen Names you Have:

sxygrl6817
I can't let you know the others

Three Things you like about yourself

My dimples
My personality
My pussy

Three Things you Dislike about yourself

Willingness to forgive others
Sensitive

Three Parts of Your Heritage

Nipmuc Indian (mothers side)
Jamaican (father)
Cuban (father's side)

Three things that Scare You:

Scary movies (I hate them)
Death
Death

Three of your everyday essentials

Watch
chapstick
pocketbook

Three things you are wearing right now:

White V-neck sweater
Black pants
of course my boots

Three of your favorite bands/artists (at the moment)

Nas
Alicia Keys
Ashanti

Three of your Favorite Songs at Present

How we do (The Game)
Soldier (Destiny's Child)
Let's get Blown (Snoop Dog)

Three New Things You want to try in the next 12 months

Getting an Envoy
Saving some money
Buying a house

Three Things you want in a relationship

Trust
Honesty
Friendship

Two Truths and a lie: (in no particular order)

I have never been in a faithful relationship
I am a selfish person
I was almost married once

Three Physical things abou the opposite sex (or same) that appeal to you

His walk
His teeth
His look

Three Things you just can't do

Betray my family

I don't have anyothers

Three of your favorite hobbies;

Reading
Scrapbooking
Shopping

Three things you want to do really badly right now:

Go home (i'm at work)
Win the lottery
Have sex

Three Careers you're considering

Teacher
Teacher
Teacher

Three places you want to go on vacation

Caymen Islands
London
Virgin Islands

Three Kids Names

Terronce
Nathaniel
Tashiana

Three things you want to do before you die

Live my life right by god
buy a house
Have a good life insurance policy to support my family when i'm gone

Three People you want to take this quiz:

Damn I don't know anyone else on here but DW*

Get this off my chest

Look I am really getting sick of hearing about this fucking Michael Ross execution thing. The man killed what I think 8 women and he's on death row WANTS TO DIE but the state, in my opinion, is bull shitting on this thing. Shit they need to stop postponing it and kill him. Damn I am sick of this on every local news channel.

With that I am out. Have a good night.

P.S. *DW call me in the morning.

This really pisses me off

I consider myself to be a very nice person that is until someone does some stupid rude ass shit to piss me off.

One of these days I will just have to hurt the cleaning lady who cleans my office feelings. You see she will come in to clean and if I happen to be on a call, instead of her minding her own business and doing her JOB like she's supposed to do she will deliberately stand in earshot of my conversation and wait until I am finished with my conversation just to speak to me. I can be on a call for a hour and this fucker will still wait until I am done.

I am now at my boiling point where the next time she does it I am going to stop my phone call and say to her. "What the FUCK do you want". Damn I am getting pissed off just typing this shit.

Enough of that
Now some of you all may say I am selfish on this matter here, and some may agree with me. As you know I have my BF and the kids at home well my place isn't big by any means and even if there is one extra person there it's an inconvenience. I get a call from my mom today at work (again) she's on the phone asking me if she and my brother can stay at my place tonight because she's been staying with one of her friends and she's due to move in her new place on the 1st but out of the blue the friend calls her from work and tells her she's gotta be out TODAY!!!
As I am listening I am getting all stressed out blood pressure getting high and shit. All I could say was yes just come on over. It's my mom and I love her so much but damn I am pissed as hell cause I love my privacy and I know it's only for one night but shit one night in my house for her will turn into the rest of the week and the weekend because where is she going to go the other nights? Exactly she has no where to go but to my place. So then I start thinking and say fuck it I am gonna pay for her to stay at the Residence Inn or something for the next few days, just between me and her, she won't owe me shit.

Don't you know I call her and in my loving daughter voice I tell her what the plan is and she immediately gets on the defense and is like oh no forget it no I'll call your aunt (in Boston might I add) and go stay there. Come on what the fuck I am thinking to my self. I once again tell her that I want to do this for her and she isn't burdening me at all. She says no and then is like I am not staying at your house either and clicks the phone.

At that moment I am feeling fucked up, stressed, wanting to just leave and go home. But then I remember I can't leave cause these no having a life dedicated to their job asses here will be tripping and god forbid I let them in on any part of my personal life everyone up in this bitch will know. So I just gain my composure and go back to working.

Damn life is fucked up.

I'm out.

Too Fuckin Long

Let's see I have a problem with the BF (boyfriend)we have been living together and I swear to fuckin god this mutha fucker acts like an old ass man shit he's only 33 and doesn't like to dick me down all the time like I need to be done.

First of all what kind of man doesn't want his woman to approach him to have sex? He "claims" that he feels like he's less of a man if I approach him. So I'm like ok I'll respect that but then he knows that I love sex, especially his but, we will have sessions maybe once a week if that maybe 2 and that's on a good ass week.

See for me there more than a guy just eating my pussy to keep me satisfied because I am not just gonna suck his dick and be like "oh he's straight" Hell NO... I need the dick to and not some dumb ass missionary position either, you gotta change your shit up sometimes. Oh yea I almost forgot I guess I got this fool spoiled cause he's never had a happy ending before me and I was the first to give him one so now this is all he can talk about. He'll be like "damn I want a happy ending everyday" I am like "who the fuck do you think I am superwoman, shit I work all day come home deal with the kids and fix you dinner every fucking night make lunches clean the house, and don't get to bed at a decent time and your dumb ass want me to give you a Happy Ending every night. Hell NOOOOOOOOO.... Shit what the fuck is in it for me?" He will have the nerve to be like "oh I'll make you cum" while he's saying this I am thinking to my self when shit by the time you cum I am ready to pass the fuck out. *sigh*

Damn I hate living in New England with all this damn snow... I was really looking forward to having lunch with my friend. Oh well maybe another time. I have to say I am so glad that I got to see DW again it's been too long. Oh yea that elevator was well worth it. LOL

Well that's all the ranting I have to do so on that note. Be safe.

T-Baby

My First

Hey what's up people. This is my first posting on here.
I have to thank Thumperdachamp for putting me on to this. *muah*.

Damn I have to thank god every single day for alowing me to live another one. Today I got a call at work one of the worse ones that you can get while at work. It's my mother on the line telling me that my cousin died. Damn what the fuck all I can do is sit and listen and try to let her know that he is in a better place now. Don't get me wrong after I hung up the phone I broke down but see I have to be strong for her. Damn now my day is completely fucked up. All I can do is sit and stare at the screen.

On the other hand I got a call from DW and that made my day for real.

Well thanks for reading my little spot.

I'm out