Lonly

Have you ever been lonly? Well if you haven't it's a fucked up feeling. Right now I am lonly as fuck. I am missing him so much and it's driving me crazy. I am needing to be in his arms right this moment. I hate going to bed alone too. Waking up and he's not by my side.

Shit never did I think in a million years that I would be this lonly.

Another Day

Uggggggg....it's another cold rainy day here. I still can't believe that it's the end of May and it's cold as shit and still raining.

I remember when May came around it was sunny the temp was at least 75-80. Now...Hell Nooooo....It's fucking 43 degrees it feels like winter. I hate NEW ENGLAND....Shit I feel like running away to some place warm where I won't have to be still wearing a heavy coat and having my heat on at the end of May.

You know what gets me when I see women go out of their houses with rollers in their hair or a damn scarf on their head. I mean shit are you in that much of a rush that you can't pull your hair back real quick or even take them damn rollers out. I am one who you will never see me outside of my home looking a hot mess like that.

Women if you can't take the time to fix your hair at least put on a hat.

But you see there is this chick that I see everyday and she never has her hair done. It's always in a scarf. I want to say to her, "look if you don't know how to do your hair then I'll do it for you." LMAO...This chick will even come out with her man looking like shit. Damn can't her man say something to her. Who the fuck would want to be seen with someone who looks like they are about to go to bed every fucking day. I see her driving, coming back from the laundry mat, going here and there with fucking sweatpants on, tee shirt, and that damn scarf with her pony tail pined up in the back. And it's not even like she has her hair done nice. Noooooooooooo it's fucked up in the back. OMG...when will people learn.

Great Weekend

Many of you may not know this but, I rarely have a great weekend. I have good ones but only once in a blue moon will i have a great weekend. Well this weekend was GREAT. It was so stress free, I had no worries, it was so relaxing and I was in good company . The weather even held up. Just had to share that.

And now Monday will be here and back into the grind of the SOS.(Same old shit).

Birthday

Well next Friday is my 1st borns Birthday. It's crazy how fast he's grown up. I am still in shock that he'll be 10. Damn I ain't ready for that. I still remember when he was born. That was the worse labor in the world. But hey I got a beautiful boy out of it. Now what's next? Shit all he can think about is basketball and playstation.

Now I have the task of bringing him and 3 or 4 of his friends to the movies next weekend. And then to the mall. I am going to die. I am not really wanting to shuffle the kids all around. Why couldn't he just ask for a party somewhere, which would have been fine with me. Oh and don't mention the gifts. As he has gotten older the gifts are more expensive.

Oh yea I'm going up to the school today when I leave this god awful job.

With that said. Have a great weekend. It's going to rain here, so you know where i'll be. In the damn house.

You know I am so sick of phony ass people. I also am sick of people who think that you are stupid and think that you believe every stupid thing that they say to you. All I have to say to those few out there whom I know like that and if they are reading this you know who you are. Grow up and cut the bull-shit.

On a lighter note...

T* got in a fight today and when I found out about it I was hot as shit. I wanted to go find the kid and beat the fuck out of him and who ever else tryed to step in. But of course I couldn't do that. I will be taking care of that situation tomorrow.

Hey DW* get at me. I sent you an email.

There's no point in me trying to hide
Hide feelings that I have inside
Feelings that are tearing me apart
It's you....You are what's on my mind
When I lay in bed at night...just you and only you
Every waking moment I wish you were by my side
What I am trying to say is baby
I love you....

Rain, Rain, More Rain.

I hate weekends like these. I can't believe I am actually looking forward to work tomorrow.