MERRY CHRISTMAS

Top 10 Annoying Things

I feel that it is time for me to revisit things that annoy me in no particular order.

1. People who keep a nasty desk at work.
2. People who don't signal when they drive. (I hate that)
3. People who don't wash their hands after they use the bathroom.
4. Girls who let guys around their kids when they haven't known them for long.
5. Grown women who think that wearing bright ass weaves are cute.
6. Grown men who think that baggy jeans look fly.
7. Men who are more needy than women.
8. People who talk so loud when they are on the phone like everyone wants to hear their conversation.
9. Having to ask someone more than once to do something.
10. Someone who calls me and doesn't say anything on the phone. (Wait didn't you call me?)

I am so sick of the weather. My seasonal depression is kicking in. I don't want to get out of bed nor go to work or anywhere for that. I am getting so tired and ready to go to bed at 7:00 each night like I am an 80 year old. I need warmth and sunlight but I still want to stay in the same city, which I know is impossible. But I will keep wishing plus it's almost my bedtime.

It's almost the end of the week and I am still broke.....

*D.... Keep your head up. I bet they see now that they can't survive without you there.

I'm taking a step back.....

Boy am I glad that T's football is over. My weekends are now free. I am going to enjoy this so much. No having to get up at 8 am on Saturday and no having my entire Sunday afternoon taken by games. The things that we do for our kids.....

Milestone

I'm ready now.....

This week flew by and with another year of my life approaching within the next couple of days, has me really thinking about life. Choices that I have made over the years. Some really stupid that I wish I could take back but can't and some really smart ones that I will cherish forever.

My dad always told me to live my days like it's your last and I believe that. I know that he did. But I often wonder if he feared death.....Did he know it was his time... That will be a question in my mind forever that I will think of each and everyday.

I am contemplating whether or not to send a card to the other half of my family for their upcoming milestone. I think my conscience is really fucking with me lately. I guess with all this time on my hands I have nothing else better to do but to think.

About to take a step into something new for me, something permanent, hopefully I won't sink. Naaaaaaaaa I definitely won't, I'm a Champ.


*WG I hope that you are still being a Champ in every aspect. I am still trying, but as we both know that is a work in progress.

Bolthouse

For the past several months I have been addicted to this drink. If you haven't had it, please run to your grocery store or organic food store and pick up a bottle. Just one sip and you will be hooked.

Blue Goodness is my favorite and then Lemonade Mango. It's all natural and it fills you up. I drink so much I think that I will wake up one day and be a blueberry. I wonder if they have a bolthouse anonymous group?????

People

People come into your life for a reason and sometimes seasons, So they say..... I actually believe this. I have known many different people in my life and yes at the time they did serve a purpose. Some I just outgrew or they outgrew me. But at the end of the day I have to say that I am grateful for having them in my life whether it was just for a season or not.

It is Friday and not a day sooner. This temp thing is starting to wear on my nerves. Nothing really on the agenda this weekend but shopping and staying warm cause the cold weather is here.

I am thinking I may have to join a group for people who are addicted to the Syle Network channel. It is on the tv day and night. Everyone at home is starting to get sick of me and my shows. Oh well that's why there are other tv's in the house.

So finally a blog.

I have just really not been feeling this whole blog thing anymore. I have seriously thought about shutting this blog of mine down. I have just not been motivated at all. I have had so much bull shit go on in my life over the past month that I just don't even have anything at all to talk about.

Maybe the motivation will come back....

Fall

One of my favorite times of the year is just around the corner. I love fall I love seeing the leaves change, the holidays. I love being able to wear one of my favorite sweaters that fit me just right. The only thing that I do not like is the inevitable cold ass winter that follows.

My thought for the day....Please try not to hold on to things forever. If you can't work it out then it's time to just call it quits for good. Remember life is a learning lesson.

Watch Your Mouth

Words are a very powerful thing, sometimes even more powerful than actions. Words can cut through someone like a knife and I don't think that people realize that at times. So therefore I think that people should really think before they talk because you can really hurt someone or piss them the fuck off and that's not cool. Because like I always say, "Don't dish it out if you can't handle it" or like my grandmother (god bless her soul) would say "Do onto others as you want them to do onto you".

Quote of the day

"Some people just can't handle the truth"

Vacation here I come....

The count down is on. I only have to get through this work week and I am on vacation. I will be so glad not to walk into this place for a week. I get to sleep in. Not have to wake up with the birds. I know *A will be happy that he doesn't have to get up either.

So we have tentatively booked a 4 day getaway. But the weird thing is is that the kids don't really want to go anywhere. I remember when I was a kid I would be psyched if my mom's said that we were going away. I didn't care where as long as we weren't at home.

Family Reunions and the Beach

We had a family reunion on Saturday, and it was crazy because there had to be about 90+ people there and I knew only about 30. I have got to keep in touch with people.

I am sitting here tired as ever because we spent the entire day yesterday at the beach and didn't reach home until 10pm. I had to drag myself out of the bed to come into work this morning.

My eyes are burning.
My body is begging me to just lay down so that it can rest.
I still have sand in awkward places.
I look like shit..
I am wondering if my feet are going to be able to get me to my car at lunch time.

Note to myself: Next time call out of work.

When I am annoyed or frustrated it is very hard for me to hide it. Most people say that I wear my feelings on my sleeve. I guess they are right. In a way this works to my advantage by people knowing when I am pissed with them. But it works to my disadvantage at times by it being hard to lie to someone and tell them that everything is cool.

Today I have been sitting here at my desk doing absolutely nothing. My throat hurts, I am tired, I think I am really getting sick. This is not a good thing for me. To top it off my co-worker keeps coming into my office telling me how she thinks her cat is dieing because she can't find it. Like i really care to hear that all day long. My suggestion to her was for her to go home and look for her cat.

I just might take tomorrow off and sleep the whole day.

Missed Birthday Party

So what if I didn't go to your kid's birthday party. Get over it. I was invited to bring my child to someone who I occasionally say hello too kids birthday party. By the way my child only met this kid one time. So we didn't go. Well I never knew how bent out of shape someone can get about this. I mean this chick took it to a whole new level. Telling me and another person who didn't go to the party that she was waiting to start the party until we came and her kid was crying cause we didn't come. So i responded by saying that I wouldn't hold up my party for anyone and she could have called if she was so called "waiting for us". I think that some people just love the drama. So anyhow I deliberately say hello to her every time I see her to make her have to say something. It's been over a month now so she needs to get over it.

Fried Dough

We have been on a fried dough kick over the past week. I have made it for the house everyday over the past few days twice a day. Last night I officially ended our fried dough kick. So now we have agreed that we will only have fried dough if we are at a fair or park, etc...

Blogger

I don't know what is going on with blogger, but everytime that I do a new post it never shows up for me on my pc for like a week. But other people are able to see my posts. I am so annoyed. Does this happen to anyone else?

*SOD I would like you to know that I did sign T up for the Raiders last Sat. at Magazine Park. So we are all set. Yes we are with the winners for sure! Hopefully I will see you at one of the games. I am waiting for a new post from you.

*K did you get my message?

It's getting HOT

The temperature is getting hotter by the minute today. They say it will be in the upper 90's today. Boy do I wish that I could be off today. I would take the kids to the beach. This is a perfect beach day. But I guess I will have to make the best of my day by sitting here in this boring office with little work to do.

At lunch I will brave the heat and walk to my car that is parked so far away....LOL....I am off on Friday, but by then the weather man is saying that it will only be in the 70's and a chance of rain. How boring. I am going to be off on a not so nice rainy day. I have been having this itch to go back to FL to see my mother, well to actually surprise her with a visit, but I don't think that will happen because I have absolutely no vacation time left and I need to build up some time for the holiday season. Such is life.

Enjoy your day.

No one said relationships are easy

Why do some stay in a relationship when they know that the other person doesn't feel the same way about them that they feel? This really bothers me, because people will stay with someone who they know doesn't have the same feelings as they have and will continue to be miserable. Some people say that they will stay because of the kids or because of financial reasons. Some maybe scared of the change because they have become so comfortable in their current situation. Is it worth the sacrifice? Is it worth being so miserable everyday? Couples have their ups and downs but if you have been in your down period so long that you can't even remember the last time that you were in your up stage, then it's time to think about you and make those changes, not just talking about them to other people but actually acting on things.

If you are that miserable then you must do something to change it and not making excuses or saying things such as "if I was .....I would have been left". Most people get tired of hearing the same ol same. There is only so much someone can take.

I find it harder and harder to wake up and want to actually go to work lately. I wish I could cut my hours and just chill and have fun like some people. Then I am zapped back to reality and realize that I would absolutely go insane if I didn't go to work everyday and sat in the house or went to the mall because things get boring to me very quick. Plus I love my money. Yes I love my pay. If I didn't spend money so carelessly I would probably have a ton saved up.

So we have agreed to go away every three weeks for the weekend this summer. I don't know how that will work, I am kinda skeptical about the whole idea. I am just content with going to the beach and chilling all weekend.

It's amazing how you sometimes grow apart form people. I think about that often and think about people whom i've met and how we drifted apart. I wonder how they are doing and where they are in their life. etc....

They say you never forget your 1st love. That is something that I believe is true. I ran into mine a few years ago and haven't seen him since. I wonder what type of path my life would have taken if we had stayed together. Hmmm....Now that I think about it, I am glad that we didn't stay together. I am happy with what I have noow and I don't think that I would change it for anything.

I love this type of rain

I bet some of you are like "wow she has blogged two consecutive days in a row". Yes I am blogging today.

Right now it is raining so so bad outside and it is 81 degrees out. But I have to say that I love the smell of rain when it is hot outside. I feel like running outside and just standing in it.

I just may do that.

Yep that's right I am buying gas today

I know that I have been seriously lacking in my posts but I just really haven't had much to say. One thing that has me vexed is the gas prices. We canceled our summer vacation on account of these high ass prices.

Oh yea today is supposed to be the infamous don't buy gas day. I can't tell you how many times I have gotten an email telling me not to buy gas on a certain day and then the gas prices will go down. In the last 3 years I haven't seen it go down only go higher. So with that said... Yes I will be buying gas today.

On my way back from FL. I had so so so much time to just sit and think.

Are people satisfied with not being happy or do they just go with the flow? Do people ever think that it is annoying to someone else to always hear the same thing from them day after day? I know for me I don't care to hear someone tell me the same drama in their life all of the time. It's annoying, plus I am older now and for me dealing with the same stuff all the time isn't cool. Especially if you are telling everyone too. I need happiness around me. I am so content with me and my personal life that I have strayed away from those who can't bring me any type of joy. It's unhealthy. Just like with the chicks here at the JOB, I just realize that they will never be happy and they thrive off of everyone else being miserable just like them. So I just keep to myself basically and ignore them. Act as if they don't exist. My day goes by smoother that way too.

With that said. Have a great weekend. I am going to catch up on some overdue sleep.

Sometimes I wonder....What is the point of me blogging to let others know my thoughts, business, etc....when some or most of them are just lurkers or don't even have a blog themselves.

On to the next thing.

Next time this week I will be on my way to Florida and I'm very excited. Not that I am going there but because I will see my mom, brother, and others. Also, this time around I will be relaxing not doing to much driving. Nothing being rushed.

Sometimes it is good to be able to step out of your everyday busy routine and just be able to chill.

I have probably talked about this on a previous post. But, yes I am going to revisit this subject again....

It annoys me so much when people are just so undecided and don't know what they want to do.

For example, last night I am on the phone with *KW and *KW is currently working at a job where they treat her like shit. So *KW gave her resignation on Monday and now they want to offer her to work her hours that she wanted UNTIL they hire someone else. So *KW asks me what she should do? I am like WTF why would you even ask me something like that. You hate the job but now you would stoop down and stay there until they get someone else to replace you so then they can be like See ya? H0w stupid is that? If you gave your notice then you need to keep on stepping and stick to your original plan. After me repeating myself for the next 20 min as to why she should not stay until they found a replacement she still asks the dumb ass question. "So *T do you think I should just work until they find someone"

I at that moment wanted to hang up on her so so bad. But I couldn't, all I could say to her is "well like I have just been saying, if you want to stay and accommodate them then that's your business but why would you give your notice and then question yourself about staying past your 2 week to help them out, when from day 1 you have been unhappy and mistreated." This conversation that we had made me realize why her personal life is also a complete mess.

So sad....I would think that being that she is a 30 year old woman she would know what she really wants out of life. But I guess not.

Didn't it just snow yesterday????

OMG when is this snow going to let up. I had my plan to look fly today. I had the outfit all picked out. Then I look out the window this morning and I can't believe it. MORE SNOW!!! I am so sick of it. Well I got over my disappointment real quick and still rocked my fly outfit. LMAO....

I hope you look and feel as fly today as I do. Because even if you look fly if you aren't feeling it then you are defeating the purpose.

Quote of the day: "Try to understand why people do what they do. They have their reasons even if we don't know what they are". When we try to understand why people do what they do, we have more compassion.

New Template

I think it's time for me to really get girly, I have always loved the colors pink and purple so it's time for my blog page to reflect that too. I hope you like it because I love it. But if you don't I really don't care don't look.

Stomach

OK I think that our house is on the way to recovery after a week of hell. Literally HELL, I have officially been blamed as the virus bringer into the house. Yes I did start it off with the vomiting and what not and then it passed on to the baby who then passed it on to my hubby who then gracefully passed it on to W*. I tell you T* must have the best immune system because he still has not gotten it.

Once again it is snowing as I type this and I wish that it would stop. It's almost March, shit a girl needs some nicer weather. Oh yea and also when even a drop of snow hits the ground people act as if they can't drive.

Well let's hope for some better weather at least for next week.

Well it's about time...

I am ready for spring to come. This whole seasonal depression thing that I have is really starting to annoy me. Plus my bones ache like I am an 80 year old woman.

I am so ready to be able to drive with my windows down and not have to wear 100lbs of clothing, I want to be able to walk out with my flip flops on. This is going to be a really nice summer for us. We have a few long weekend trips planned that I am really looking forward to. Of course I will be heading to FL too.

On another note....In a perfect world people would know exactly who and what they want and not play with the other person's emotions. But that's why we are living in a fucked up world where people would rather string someone along and not just be up front and honest with them.

With that said....

Have a good day!

Computer at home is not allowing me to go online and I am pissed. So now I have brought myself to blog from work. The thing is, I have blogged from work before, but I am never in a relaxed state of mind when I am blogging from here.

I guess now winter is coming here finally. They are predicting temps in the 20's for next week. I am not looking forward to this.