I often sit and wonder to myself...Damn what I am doing is fucked up. I have A* at home but I also have HIM whenever I need him. Am I being selfish? Sometimes yes, but see I wouldn't need HIM if A* was meeting me at least 1/2 way in this relationship. In HIM I find things that I love that I wish A* was, but A* is very stubborn and is set in his ways and will never change. In HIM I find my soulmate, but unfortunately I have ended up with A*.