Birthday

Well next Friday is my 1st borns Birthday. It's crazy how fast he's grown up. I am still in shock that he'll be 10. Damn I ain't ready for that. I still remember when he was born. That was the worse labor in the world. But hey I got a beautiful boy out of it. Now what's next? Shit all he can think about is basketball and playstation.

Now I have the task of bringing him and 3 or 4 of his friends to the movies next weekend. And then to the mall. I am going to die. I am not really wanting to shuffle the kids all around. Why couldn't he just ask for a party somewhere, which would have been fine with me. Oh and don't mention the gifts. As he has gotten older the gifts are more expensive.

Oh yea I'm going up to the school today when I leave this god awful job.

With that said. Have a great weekend. It's going to rain here, so you know where i'll be. In the damn house.

You know I am so sick of phony ass people. I also am sick of people who think that you are stupid and think that you believe every stupid thing that they say to you. All I have to say to those few out there whom I know like that and if they are reading this you know who you are. Grow up and cut the bull-shit.

On a lighter note...

T* got in a fight today and when I found out about it I was hot as shit. I wanted to go find the kid and beat the fuck out of him and who ever else tryed to step in. But of course I couldn't do that. I will be taking care of that situation tomorrow.

Hey DW* get at me. I sent you an email.

There's no point in me trying to hide
Hide feelings that I have inside
Feelings that are tearing me apart
It's you....You are what's on my mind
When I lay in bed at night...just you and only you
Every waking moment I wish you were by my side
What I am trying to say is baby
I love you....

Rain, Rain, More Rain.

I hate weekends like these. I can't believe I am actually looking forward to work tomorrow.

Superwoman

Damn do I think I am superwoman? I am sitting here about to fall asleep but trying to finish these 2 papers that are due tonight. What possessed me to take these classes I have no idea.

Never again

I was in the store the other day and saw these packets of frozen dinners for you to cook in your crock pot so I decided to buy the Chicken Soup one. BIG MISTAKE I put the food in the crock pot went to work. When I came back in the house everything was smelling all good, so I figured that this food was going to be good. I tried a little before dinner and I have never tasted something so nasty. See I usually make chicken soup from scratch, but since I saw this in the grocery store and it looked real good on the picture of the bag, I just knew that there was no way I could go wrong. Never ever again will I buy that mess.

Questions for you

When you are with her do you think of me?
When you are with your friends or at work
do I pass through your thoughts?
If you were to see me right now, what would you do?
Would you make love to me with your eyes?
Would you kiss me all over?
Could you ever love me?
Take care of me?
Take me for me?
Have me as your woman?

Can You Do These Things?

You

They say everything happens for a reason. Well if that's true then I am so glad that you came into my life. I will be there for you anytime you need me to talk to. Have a good weekend.

I often sit and wonder to myself...Damn what I am doing is fucked up. I have A* at home but I also have HIM whenever I need him. Am I being selfish? Sometimes yes, but see I wouldn't need HIM if A* was meeting me at least 1/2 way in this relationship. In HIM I find things that I love that I wish A* was, but A* is very stubborn and is set in his ways and will never change. In HIM I find my soulmate, but unfortunately I have ended up with A*.

Finally some Nice Weather

Hello: I can't believe we are finlly getting some over due nice weather here in the 413. But as you know by this weekend it will be fucked up again.

The Telephone

I am really sick and tired of people thinking just because I have a phone I am always supposted to be accessable. My motive on this is if I don't pick up leave a message and if I feel like calling you back I will.

Some people really get me like the ones who will call my house in the middle of the fucking day knowing that I work 8-5 and have the nerve to yell on the machine asking me to pick up the phone. I feel like leaving a message that says "If you are calling me between the hours of 8-5 that means that your lazy ass doesn't have a job and a life cause you if you did you wouldn't be calling some one who you KNOW is at work."

But see I can't do that without hurting someone's feelings. Damn.

I am talking to my moms the other day and you would think that I'm a little kid cause she's on the phone asking me how come I don't leave my ringer on at night. What if there's an emergency and they need me. All the while I am thinking to myself. I turn my ringer off at night because of people like you who call me at fucking 5am thinking not being considerate thinking just cause your ass is up the whole world is up and you will get an attitude if I tell you I am sleep and I'll call you back. Shittttttttttttttt people. So I go on and listen to her then I just reply with "I turn it off so I won't be bothered by people calling me when I am sleep". She got a crazy attitude and just ended the conversation.

I haven't lived under this woman's roof for 7 years now and you would think that by now she would respect the way people run their households. I guess somethings will never change.

Hello

Hey what's up. Well it's been about a week and a half since my last post but hey T-Baby's been busy with work, family, etc...

So let's see what's good with me....(hmmmm....)

Not a damn thing. Same ol shit.

BTW....I am hoping that we don't have another damn snow storm.

I hate living in New England.

A little about me

Three Names You Go By:

T-Baby (of course)
T
Baby Girl

Three Screen Names you Have:

sxygrl6817
I can't let you know the others

Three Things you like about yourself

My dimples
My personality
My pussy

Three Things you Dislike about yourself

Willingness to forgive others
Sensitive

Three Parts of Your Heritage

Nipmuc Indian (mothers side)
Jamaican (father)
Cuban (father's side)

Three things that Scare You:

Scary movies (I hate them)
Death
Death

Three of your everyday essentials

Watch
chapstick
pocketbook

Three things you are wearing right now:

White V-neck sweater
Black pants
of course my boots

Three of your favorite bands/artists (at the moment)

Nas
Alicia Keys
Ashanti

Three of your Favorite Songs at Present

How we do (The Game)
Soldier (Destiny's Child)
Let's get Blown (Snoop Dog)

Three New Things You want to try in the next 12 months

Getting an Envoy
Saving some money
Buying a house

Three Things you want in a relationship

Trust
Honesty
Friendship

Two Truths and a lie: (in no particular order)

I have never been in a faithful relationship
I am a selfish person
I was almost married once

Three Physical things abou the opposite sex (or same) that appeal to you

His walk
His teeth
His look

Three Things you just can't do

Betray my family

I don't have anyothers

Three of your favorite hobbies;

Reading
Scrapbooking
Shopping

Three things you want to do really badly right now:

Go home (i'm at work)
Win the lottery
Have sex

Three Careers you're considering

Teacher
Teacher
Teacher

Three places you want to go on vacation

Caymen Islands
London
Virgin Islands

Three Kids Names

Terronce
Nathaniel
Tashiana

Three things you want to do before you die

Live my life right by god
buy a house
Have a good life insurance policy to support my family when i'm gone

Three People you want to take this quiz:

Damn I don't know anyone else on here but DW*

Get this off my chest

Look I am really getting sick of hearing about this fucking Michael Ross execution thing. The man killed what I think 8 women and he's on death row WANTS TO DIE but the state, in my opinion, is bull shitting on this thing. Shit they need to stop postponing it and kill him. Damn I am sick of this on every local news channel.

With that I am out. Have a good night.

P.S. *DW call me in the morning.

This really pisses me off

I consider myself to be a very nice person that is until someone does some stupid rude ass shit to piss me off.

One of these days I will just have to hurt the cleaning lady who cleans my office feelings. You see she will come in to clean and if I happen to be on a call, instead of her minding her own business and doing her JOB like she's supposed to do she will deliberately stand in earshot of my conversation and wait until I am finished with my conversation just to speak to me. I can be on a call for a hour and this fucker will still wait until I am done.

I am now at my boiling point where the next time she does it I am going to stop my phone call and say to her. "What the FUCK do you want". Damn I am getting pissed off just typing this shit.

Enough of that
Now some of you all may say I am selfish on this matter here, and some may agree with me. As you know I have my BF and the kids at home well my place isn't big by any means and even if there is one extra person there it's an inconvenience. I get a call from my mom today at work (again) she's on the phone asking me if she and my brother can stay at my place tonight because she's been staying with one of her friends and she's due to move in her new place on the 1st but out of the blue the friend calls her from work and tells her she's gotta be out TODAY!!!
As I am listening I am getting all stressed out blood pressure getting high and shit. All I could say was yes just come on over. It's my mom and I love her so much but damn I am pissed as hell cause I love my privacy and I know it's only for one night but shit one night in my house for her will turn into the rest of the week and the weekend because where is she going to go the other nights? Exactly she has no where to go but to my place. So then I start thinking and say fuck it I am gonna pay for her to stay at the Residence Inn or something for the next few days, just between me and her, she won't owe me shit.

Don't you know I call her and in my loving daughter voice I tell her what the plan is and she immediately gets on the defense and is like oh no forget it no I'll call your aunt (in Boston might I add) and go stay there. Come on what the fuck I am thinking to my self. I once again tell her that I want to do this for her and she isn't burdening me at all. She says no and then is like I am not staying at your house either and clicks the phone.

At that moment I am feeling fucked up, stressed, wanting to just leave and go home. But then I remember I can't leave cause these no having a life dedicated to their job asses here will be tripping and god forbid I let them in on any part of my personal life everyone up in this bitch will know. So I just gain my composure and go back to working.

Damn life is fucked up.

I'm out.

Too Fuckin Long

Let's see I have a problem with the BF (boyfriend)we have been living together and I swear to fuckin god this mutha fucker acts like an old ass man shit he's only 33 and doesn't like to dick me down all the time like I need to be done.

First of all what kind of man doesn't want his woman to approach him to have sex? He "claims" that he feels like he's less of a man if I approach him. So I'm like ok I'll respect that but then he knows that I love sex, especially his but, we will have sessions maybe once a week if that maybe 2 and that's on a good ass week.

See for me there more than a guy just eating my pussy to keep me satisfied because I am not just gonna suck his dick and be like "oh he's straight" Hell NO... I need the dick to and not some dumb ass missionary position either, you gotta change your shit up sometimes. Oh yea I almost forgot I guess I got this fool spoiled cause he's never had a happy ending before me and I was the first to give him one so now this is all he can talk about. He'll be like "damn I want a happy ending everyday" I am like "who the fuck do you think I am superwoman, shit I work all day come home deal with the kids and fix you dinner every fucking night make lunches clean the house, and don't get to bed at a decent time and your dumb ass want me to give you a Happy Ending every night. Hell NOOOOOOOOO.... Shit what the fuck is in it for me?" He will have the nerve to be like "oh I'll make you cum" while he's saying this I am thinking to my self when shit by the time you cum I am ready to pass the fuck out. *sigh*

Damn I hate living in New England with all this damn snow... I was really looking forward to having lunch with my friend. Oh well maybe another time. I have to say I am so glad that I got to see DW again it's been too long. Oh yea that elevator was well worth it. LOL

Well that's all the ranting I have to do so on that note. Be safe.

T-Baby

My First

Hey what's up people. This is my first posting on here.
I have to thank Thumperdachamp for putting me on to this. *muah*.

Damn I have to thank god every single day for alowing me to live another one. Today I got a call at work one of the worse ones that you can get while at work. It's my mother on the line telling me that my cousin died. Damn what the fuck all I can do is sit and listen and try to let her know that he is in a better place now. Don't get me wrong after I hung up the phone I broke down but see I have to be strong for her. Damn now my day is completely fucked up. All I can do is sit and stare at the screen.

On the other hand I got a call from DW and that made my day for real.

Well thanks for reading my little spot.

I'm out