I am back

Hey what's up I am finally back out of hiding. Let's see, I went to Florida this past week and got back home this morning at 1:30am. Boy am I so tired and my ass is here at work unfortunately. I had a really good time despite the drive there and back. I will never drive there again, I will do my usual and jump my ass on a plane and fly there. I am to impatient for all of that long site seeing shit.

3 Days have passed

It's almost 3:30 and I am sitting here missing you like crazy. I really need to feel your touch right now. I need you to hold me. I don't know if I will be able to get through the rest of the month without feeling you. This is truly a test for me you have no idea. Maybe one day I will really have to let you know just how bad I need you......

A while

I know it's been a while since my last post. The truth is, I have been unmotivated. Today I am so tired. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night I really wish that I could go get back into bed and sleep the entire day.

On another note I have to tell you one thing that really irks me. When someone keeps calling my house after they know good and damn well that I am sleep. You know when the phone rings and you are in that good deep sleep and it just wakes you up out of it. Well that was what kept on happening last night. I was one mad bitch and to top it off the person was talking so damn low that I could only make out some of the words that they were saying.

This is why I shut the ringer off at night.

It's 9 am and all ready it's 70 and humid as hell

It's another hot day here in the 413. I really don't have much to say but I do know that I really have to find sometime to catch up on my sleep, I have not had a good sleep in weeks. Maybe this weekend I will have to catch up. I got a call yesterday from a long time really good friend just when I was leaving work and that really made my day.

Summer? Is it almost here?

This weekend had to be one of the best here weather wise so far this year. Temps were in the low 90s and I was loving every single bit of it. Summer is my favorite time of the year, because I love going to BBQs (my family is famous for having one every damn weekend) and to the beach. Well, so far we have taken our first getaway for the summer to the Cape. Hmmmm... what's next??? I do know for sure that Virginia Beach is 4th of July weekend. Besides all the good weather, I have my final paper's rough draft due tonight and I still haven't even started it. Not one word on the paper. I am truly unmotivated. I took a shower to try to cool off and see if I would get motivated, but nope that didn't work. Now I am sitting here contemplating whether to just sit here trying to get motivated or just say "fuck it" and just take that 10% late grade cut and do it tomorrow. I am tired as fuck too. Uggggh.

Oh yea I forgot to mention that I went to my first wedding shower for 2 lesbians who will be getting married later on this month. All that I can say is that it was very interesting. But overall, I had a really good time.


Hey DW* what's up on the posts? It's been a minute and I do remember that you had the nerve at one time or another to get on me about not posting frequently. Do you need motivation???? I expect to see something soon. Maybe that Roll Call thing we spoke about. Call me.

AS* I hope you are good. I was thinking of you this weekend, I miss you.

Lonly

Have you ever been lonly? Well if you haven't it's a fucked up feeling. Right now I am lonly as fuck. I am missing him so much and it's driving me crazy. I am needing to be in his arms right this moment. I hate going to bed alone too. Waking up and he's not by my side.

Shit never did I think in a million years that I would be this lonly.

Another Day

Uggggggg....it's another cold rainy day here. I still can't believe that it's the end of May and it's cold as shit and still raining.

I remember when May came around it was sunny the temp was at least 75-80. Now...Hell Nooooo....It's fucking 43 degrees it feels like winter. I hate NEW ENGLAND....Shit I feel like running away to some place warm where I won't have to be still wearing a heavy coat and having my heat on at the end of May.

You know what gets me when I see women go out of their houses with rollers in their hair or a damn scarf on their head. I mean shit are you in that much of a rush that you can't pull your hair back real quick or even take them damn rollers out. I am one who you will never see me outside of my home looking a hot mess like that.

Women if you can't take the time to fix your hair at least put on a hat.

But you see there is this chick that I see everyday and she never has her hair done. It's always in a scarf. I want to say to her, "look if you don't know how to do your hair then I'll do it for you." LMAO...This chick will even come out with her man looking like shit. Damn can't her man say something to her. Who the fuck would want to be seen with someone who looks like they are about to go to bed every fucking day. I see her driving, coming back from the laundry mat, going here and there with fucking sweatpants on, tee shirt, and that damn scarf with her pony tail pined up in the back. And it's not even like she has her hair done nice. Noooooooooooo it's fucked up in the back. OMG...when will people learn.

Great Weekend

Many of you may not know this but, I rarely have a great weekend. I have good ones but only once in a blue moon will i have a great weekend. Well this weekend was GREAT. It was so stress free, I had no worries, it was so relaxing and I was in good company . The weather even held up. Just had to share that.

And now Monday will be here and back into the grind of the SOS.(Same old shit).

Birthday

Well next Friday is my 1st borns Birthday. It's crazy how fast he's grown up. I am still in shock that he'll be 10. Damn I ain't ready for that. I still remember when he was born. That was the worse labor in the world. But hey I got a beautiful boy out of it. Now what's next? Shit all he can think about is basketball and playstation.

Now I have the task of bringing him and 3 or 4 of his friends to the movies next weekend. And then to the mall. I am going to die. I am not really wanting to shuffle the kids all around. Why couldn't he just ask for a party somewhere, which would have been fine with me. Oh and don't mention the gifts. As he has gotten older the gifts are more expensive.

Oh yea I'm going up to the school today when I leave this god awful job.

With that said. Have a great weekend. It's going to rain here, so you know where i'll be. In the damn house.

You know I am so sick of phony ass people. I also am sick of people who think that you are stupid and think that you believe every stupid thing that they say to you. All I have to say to those few out there whom I know like that and if they are reading this you know who you are. Grow up and cut the bull-shit.

On a lighter note...

T* got in a fight today and when I found out about it I was hot as shit. I wanted to go find the kid and beat the fuck out of him and who ever else tryed to step in. But of course I couldn't do that. I will be taking care of that situation tomorrow.

Hey DW* get at me. I sent you an email.

There's no point in me trying to hide
Hide feelings that I have inside
Feelings that are tearing me apart
It's you....You are what's on my mind
When I lay in bed at night...just you and only you
Every waking moment I wish you were by my side
What I am trying to say is baby
I love you....

Rain, Rain, More Rain.

I hate weekends like these. I can't believe I am actually looking forward to work tomorrow.

Superwoman

Damn do I think I am superwoman? I am sitting here about to fall asleep but trying to finish these 2 papers that are due tonight. What possessed me to take these classes I have no idea.

Never again

I was in the store the other day and saw these packets of frozen dinners for you to cook in your crock pot so I decided to buy the Chicken Soup one. BIG MISTAKE I put the food in the crock pot went to work. When I came back in the house everything was smelling all good, so I figured that this food was going to be good. I tried a little before dinner and I have never tasted something so nasty. See I usually make chicken soup from scratch, but since I saw this in the grocery store and it looked real good on the picture of the bag, I just knew that there was no way I could go wrong. Never ever again will I buy that mess.

Questions for you

When you are with her do you think of me?
When you are with your friends or at work
do I pass through your thoughts?
If you were to see me right now, what would you do?
Would you make love to me with your eyes?
Would you kiss me all over?
Could you ever love me?
Take care of me?
Take me for me?
Have me as your woman?

Can You Do These Things?

You

They say everything happens for a reason. Well if that's true then I am so glad that you came into my life. I will be there for you anytime you need me to talk to. Have a good weekend.

I often sit and wonder to myself...Damn what I am doing is fucked up. I have A* at home but I also have HIM whenever I need him. Am I being selfish? Sometimes yes, but see I wouldn't need HIM if A* was meeting me at least 1/2 way in this relationship. In HIM I find things that I love that I wish A* was, but A* is very stubborn and is set in his ways and will never change. In HIM I find my soulmate, but unfortunately I have ended up with A*.

Finally some Nice Weather

Hello: I can't believe we are finlly getting some over due nice weather here in the 413. But as you know by this weekend it will be fucked up again.