family vacations

So i don't know if you remember my post a while back, but I mentioned that I was going to Florida to see my moms and it was turning into a fiasco.
Now....
I'm back and I have to say this Never Ever Ever Ever will I subject my self and my kids to a fucking ride in MY car with my Aunt. What a fucking joke.

Shit to make a long story short, She only paid for $80 worth of gas the entire time. This is Round trip and most of you know how expensive gas has gotten and think about driving a SUV about 1,200 + miles each way!

Then she had to be reminded that she would not try to punk me or make me out to be the bad one when clearly she was lying about her rental car situation when we got there. UGGGh....

It was so hot and humid there but otherwise aside of the family arguement and other bullshit. The trip was ok. Plus I got to see my mom. We went to the beach a couple of times and swam in the pool the other days, so that was cool. Oh yea we went to Sea World where none of my kids wanted to go and I didn't either, but I had to be a team player so I went.

Oh yea, one thing that was so funny was when I was in Burger King and this guy comes in with no damn shoes on just bare ass feet like it was nothing smiling and shit. Doesn't he know he looked like a damn fool. Also when I was standing in line behind about 3 other women and another comes along and says to me "They only got one seat in there?" I almost died with laughter. It was the way she sounded. LOL>..

I'm sitting here with you. I know that you are talking to me but I can't even comprehend what you are actually saying. I am just trying to fight back the tears that I can feel coming. WFT I am thinking that I need to be stronger. I can't let you see me cry. I try to change the conversation by telling you that we need to close the windows cause it's raining. But you instantly keep on telling me that I am special to you and always will be. Fuck it that's not good enough for me. My selfish ways are wishing that you would just say fuck it I am not leaving. But that's just a hope and a wish and of course that's not reality. I told you before it's a piece of my heart that's being ripped away.