Ex Best Friend

She used to be my best friend.
It's crazy how you can be friends one minute and enemies the next.
That's how it is with us.
I would tell her my secrets that no one else would know.
She would tell me hers. Then one day it just ended.
Our friendship.
I went over and over in my mind if I said something wrong to offend her. But naaaaaaa even if I did, I hoped that she was WOMAN enough to call me on it. Sometimes I do say fucked up shit without even thinking twice.
Sometimes I sit and think, was she really worthy enough for my friendship because for me I don't keep a lot of friends, just a few, the rest are ALL associates. So when I consider you my friend I consider you my family too. I let you into the real me. No sugar coated person.
Hmmmmm....Well I thought that I wouldn't get over the hurt of not having someone to confide in, someone who didn't judge me. But I finally did. That's just a closed chapter of my life.

Wednesday

I find it harder and harder to get to sleep at night. It will be about 8:00 and I will be super tired but then about 9:30 or so I get that second wind when I really need to be taking my ass to bed. See this works in my benefit sometimes. Last night it was good that I did get that second wind because I got to see the season premier of Nip Tuck. I love that show so much. I honestly wasn't that impressed with it last night. Hmmm...Hopefully it will get better. But see I ended up going to bed sometime around 12am and then I paid for it this morning by not getting up until 7am. I was flying to work only to get here a min before my time to start and to have the boss ask me some stupid ass bull shit as I come in. Now with the new employee she may intimidate them, but her ass knows that I am not in any way intimidated by her bull shit. I will give it right back very quick. So this morning I had to do that and it's amazing how quick some people will back their asses right down. LMAO...

I am so glad it is Wednesday. One more day closer to the weekend.

Today....

Today I did not want to get out of bed. I hit the snooze at least 4 times.
I sometimes wish that I didn't have to come to work on Monday's.
This weekend draged for me. It was very uneventful. I did a little sewing but nothing big.
It's funny cause when people I know find out that I sew they can't believe it. Everyone tells me that I don't look like the type. What is the type? What an old lady or some nerdy girl? Hmmm well I don't know what it is but that is something that I do and I do it very well.
I am so so glad that the day is almost over.
I just want to go home and get in to the bed. Tomorrow is a half day for me so I am totally looking forward to it!!!

Hump Day

I am so glad that it is finally Wednesday. I t seems as if the week is going by slower and slower each day. Not too much has been going on with me.

The other day I was talking to *D and *D said that it bothers them that I am the type of person who can give my 110% to some one day and then if my feelings get hurt I can just give up that 110% real quick. I had never thought about that. So while we were talking I told *D that the reason why I am like that is because I have been hurt to many times, so rather than keep on trying to forget about things I just stop putting my effort into it. So *D told me that is why they protect my feelings with a lot of things.

Just about done

Well it's Thursday and I have to say that I am glad that only one more day until the weekend. This has been an interesting week.

Today is his birthday so I will have to be extra nice and sweet.

Work has been work the new girl started this week and so far so good. She seems cool. I am broke and can't wait until next week so I can get paid. It has been a long time since my funds have been drained like they are right now.

On another note.... I am glad to see that FOXY had posted a little something.

Tuesday I brought my mom and brother to the airport. That was a pretty emotional scene. LOL...Now that I think back to that day I have to laugh people were probably laughing their asses off looking at a bunch of us grown asses crying like that. LMAO...
I tell you though nothing changes with my mom even with her 1300 miles away. She and I already had an argument yesterday on the damn phone. I am was not even in the mood for her shit. UGGGGGGH.

*Thumper glad to see you posting again. I can't wait to hear some of your mall experiences.

Another Day

Isn't this such a nice pictue?
It is such a beautiful day today. The wind is blowing the temperature is right. This should be a relaxing weekend for me. I am just about done with school shopping. I only have to get T* his sneakers and then we will be all set.